Have you ever felt that, no matter what you do or how hard you try, that nothing seems to be good enough?
Like you feel you just 'can't get it right?'...
Yep, well if you answered YES to that, you're not alone.
I have my moments of relapse - with the most recent time being yesterday!
I have all the skills + tools I need to navigate through these challenging times which I am beyond grateful for but sometimes life just kicks you in the butt & you get triggered - no matter what 'tool' you use, you're just mean't to experience it for what it is rather than always trying to change your state.
Honestly, I sometimes find that in this personal + spiritual development field, we're so busy wanting to use our tools as a way to 'escape' the depths of what we're experiencing rather than just allowing out experience to simply 'be what it is' without the need to changes anything as mentioned above.
And that's what happened yesterday, I didn't go to any 'tool', I just sat with myself & honoured what was coming up.
What triggered it for me was puppy training, it felt like no matter what I did, even though she is actually super well trained, we're struggling with separation anxiety - this got me down...like someone 'I'm not good enough or doing enough' - I dropped into this feeling & discovered that my inner child was being triggered (root cause therapy on myself haha come to think of it that's the natural tool I used in that moment without even realising it).
When I was little, no matter how hard I trained as a gymnast and no matter how well I managed to successfully complete a skill or perform at a competition, there was ALWAYS something, something that wasn't 'right' - can you now see why I developed an Eating Disorder (hello perfectionist). And I totally get that we can always BE/DO better - hello learning, BUT I just needed to hear more often than I did that -
I WAS ENOUGH.
full stop.
None of this 'you're good BUT, you did well BUT'...
n o.
YOU ARE ENOUGH. PERIOD.
So, last night that's what I had to give to my inner child. To let her know that I am enough. That how I am training my puppy, is enough. That how I am approaching business, is enough. That how i relate with my partner is enough. That what I do in my day to day life, is enough.
And you too - you are enough.
Don't EVER forget that.
So what is being triggered within YOU when you have these thoughts?
Have a think, a journal or meditate on it - hey, better yet, book a Psychic Reading with me if you need help figuring out your blind spots.
So. anyways, fast forward to about an hour or so ago, we came across with edible chew toy that has actually just kept Hallie (our puppy) occupied for the last hour - we have even left the house and she didn't even realise ! yay to us :)
You see, when you allow the breakdown to happen - like I did yesterday, the answer reveals itself almost immediately.
There is a lesson in everything and all we do - including training our puppies or raising kids and everything in between, and within those lessons are gifts, IF and only IF you choose to see it that way!
It's all about perspective.
But in case you need to hear this right now, or you need the reminder - YOU ARE ENOUGH.
you are MORE than enough. With love,
Alicia Michelle
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